Tuesday, September 30, 2008

a change in tone.

over the past 10 days, i have felt more emotions, shed more tears, and felt more stupid than i have in a good 16 years combined. I became the girl i hate. the one who complains, who judges, who doesn't communicate, doesn't see beyond, and worst of all, becomes negative. I acted a big fat fool. I didn't see what i have here in spain, (a whole country!!) and what i have back home (a loving family, loving friends, and tons of support). 

so, from now on, these post will only be for positive things. i will think positive, i will learn spanish, make friends, and take advantage of this experience. it will be hard. it is hard. it is frustrating and very emotional. and i will get through this laughing and come back with an amazing new sense of the world and myself. 

please stay patient with me and know that for all the bitching and moaning i do, i really don't have anything to complain about. 

xoxoxo. 
violeta

6 comments:

julie and jacob said...

Violet,

I love reading your posts - You write with honesty and maturity, and I have laughed out loud and cried a little, too. I can't wait to hear what happens next...you amaze me.

Love,
Julie and Jacob

Diane Stern said...

Hi Violet,

I am Sam and Gabe Quintana's mother and I am not only enjoying your extremely well written posts but also feeling for your struggle. Don't worry about complaining...we all understand and it takes courage to complain and to express these hard emotions and circumstances. I like the way you encourage yourself to hang in there, be positive, and get the most out of this...and you will...but don't be hard on yourself in the meantime. Your reactions are normal. Hope things turn around soon...this is really rough.

Love, Diane (who according to your mother is a glamorous shoe therapist...or something like that)

Reba said...

Miss Honey,
Your flickr pix are really, really good. Post more soon.
Love the positive attitude. And don't feel guilty. You didn't do anything wrong.
We love you, no, we ADORE you.
Ruby's sleeping in your bed now, for the last few days. She now has two large rooms all to herself.
That's our Ruby.
xoxoxoxo

Taylor K said...

Hi Violet! Let me just say... You are AMAZING. Your posts are so introspective and you write so beautifully and are so genuine... I wish I could be there to give you a hug when you feel overwhelmed, but I know that you are such a strong and charismatic person that you will attract and find friends in Spain who will help you through the frustrating times and help you celebrate the fabulous times... You are SO brave to willingly go out of your element. And... Your positive attitude is FANTABULOUS!

Adios amiga
Taylor K

Nicolas Cole P Esser said...

I definitely look forward to your posts. It's better than reading any newspaper that lands on our doorstep. Your amazing, stay strong.
xox
Suzanne

Baby Rave Snob said...

Hurry up and post again, Jesus